烦恼

以前最大的烦恼是 ，
下课应该吃些什麼，
选拔赛又落选了，
功課没做完该给老师惩罚了，
同座既然拋下自己没来，
这些这些，在我们长大后，都成了一些我们不在意的事。
长大了烦恼也变得复杂，变得困难。烦恼的也不再是这些芝麻绿豆的事。
小时候，往往盼望着自己可以快点长大。
长大之后，却想回到童年。
也许这就是所谓的人生，充满这矛盾。
今年才18岁的我，没有伟大的梦想，因此这成为了我18岁最大的烦恼。
在这世界某个角落的你，是否也有你烦也烦不完的烦恼呢。

highschool

Haven't been blogging for 2 years.

      Been very busy nowadays, life been good. Well not really , got into an argument with my best friend. We haven't talk in couple of weeks, we're about to graduate high school. I don't understand how she thinks, and am too tired to try and fix this relationship. Not sure if  I'll regret this for the rest of my life or not. 1 more month till SPM aka the biggest exam in my life. Well time flies, still remember when I just started high school. We were so innocent and all we think of is just what to have for recess time, nasi lemak or tomyam bihun. And all those times when me and my friend got in trouble, because we did not finish our homework and drawing each others arm during class. We got sent to the discipline room. The discipline teacher make us wrote , " I wouldn't play in class anymore ." for like 1 full A4 paper. My friend and I just enjoy staying there wasting time and not getting back to class. Nowdays, everything we care about is just our grades, our exams and what not. We forgot how important is to have fun. Yes, grades are important, but please don't forget about your old self . Now, We're just obsessed with comparing our grades with others. It's just so tiring. I believed that people are not good in studying are good in other things, like arts and etc. There's no point looking down at people. I remember once , my friend's mom wanted her to stop hanging out with me ,just because my grades are not as good... I don't understand this at all. How can grades determine someone. Those are just marks, and alphabets.

      I would say that getting through high school is not easy, especially the first two years, my friend and I get bullied by seniors that were just one year older than us . They would call us nasty things, pull our hair , and try to pick a fight with us. My friend and I would go to school with fear. But fortunately , in the next year, they went to morning sessions. ( We're in afternoon session.) After that, life got a little easier. In chinese we called, 好景不长，means good thing never last. Me and my best friends we're all parted to different classes. I thought we can still remain best friends, but I was too innocent. We started to have different opinions and argue very frequently for very little things. yes it sounded very dramatic. Until today , I still think about them and cherish all those old times, hard ships that we went thru. I still hope we can be friends again, but I'm still grateful that I have my classmates. They maybe not the cool kids nor the smartest students, but they are people that can make me laugh. They understand me better, and maybe know a little bit better of what I'm going thru.

      This is what i go thru in high school and I will remember it forever and ever.

HAZE.

I'm just a normal girl who lives in Malaysia, who loves food and going outdoor.

But,recently something is bothering me. The Haze.

Because of the haze i need to stay home for 4 days.

Yes.literally 4 days. I get bored very easily. So, it is like torturing me.

So, the only thing I can do is sit back and 'lepak'.

I can't do anything about the haze :(

I have a tournament this Saturday. I hope that the haze will be gone by that time.

And because of the haze we can't have volleyball training.

Our school don't have indoor court, so yea :(

But because of the haze I also get a lot of free time so I can read.

Lately, I've been reading some 'detective novel' , I don't know what its called in english.

In chinese we called it '侦探小说'. Yea, its very interesting for me to read and find 

out the mystery. I like it a lot a lot. 

And yea that's all for now :)))

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梦想是何物？

其实我是一个一直都找不到所谓梦想的人。
我常常问我的朋友，你的梦想是什么？
他们都会回答我他们的自愿，而不是梦想。
想说的是，梦想与自愿是有分别的。

有一个朋友，把她名为X好了，
当我问她，你的梦想是什么？
她无奈地说，梦想重要吗？只要做到我妈妈想要我做牙医就好了啊。
当我听见这样回答时，心里感到非常庆幸。
因为从小到大，我父母都没有在任何的领域给我压力。
我的父母常说，长大要找一个真正喜欢的工作，不要为了做而做，要有梦想，把梦想实现。
可能不同的父母会教育着孩子不同的价值观。

15岁的我，找不到梦想，却很喜欢文字。
很喜欢看书，文笔却不好。曾经尝试着写一些短篇的作文之类，
但，写着写着就没有下文了。
我希望的是有一天能够出版一本属于自己的小说，
里头写着自己的小故事。很不切实际，因为我文笔实在差。
不喜欢上课 考试的我 成绩就马马虎虎，很勉强可以及格的那种。
而我的成绩是朋友当中最差的那个。也许是因为这样，
我总是认为老师们常常鄙视我，拿我来比较。（朋友说是我敏感而已。）

其实，这样小小的鄙视，我早已看习惯了。
我跟普通的15岁学生不一样，自然做事情也不一样，鄙视我的人多的数不清了。
我已经不会因为小小的鄙视而轻易的放弃自己了。
我可能比很多人都幸福，我生命里拥有很多激励我的人，
父母亲，朋友（彤&嫣），Grandpapa 。
谢谢你们在我需要的时候都常常给予我鼓励。

That's all for now ;)

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What's going on in my life?

It's been 6 months since i wrote a blogpost....
I kinda don't know what to write. My life its pretty boring haha..
but few months ago I went for MSSD (volleyball)  with my school..
Its the first ever match that I went to. I remember i was very excited yet nervous.

First match its against SMK Sri Emas , we won them.
Second match its a tough game its against SMK BU3. We lose.
And third match we manage to won Assunta ( I hope I dint get the school name wrong )
We got in to semi Finale !! yay !!

The second day, we play against Catholic high school , unfortunately we lose.
After this game all of cry because of the points. Its very very close to win the game.
It's very hard for us. But after a good cry , we become stronger . (I think XD )

Here's some picture of my lovely teammates :

That's All for now Byee :D

Random Facts About Me

Hello guys. It's been awhile huh?

So So Sorry I'm just too lazy :P

So let's get started:

1.I am very very lazy.
2.I love to play volleyball. (Just a hobby)
3.I can paint with water colors.
4.My fav youtuber is Lily Singh a.k.a Superwoman.
5.I actually love to dance. Who inspired me? Gong Minzy. (2NE1)
6.I'm obsess with sneakers but I don't own many.
7.I have zero confidence when I walk with one of my friend.
8.I'm afraid of cats and rats.
9.I call my best friend every single night.
10.I'm a very cheerful person.
11.I'm quite short. (159cm)
12.I'm a kpop-er. I only like YG ent's artist.
13.I love rappers exp. T.O.P , Mino , Bobby,Tablo.
14.I love to have deep conversation with someone.
15.Love K-Dramas.
16.I love the beach very much.
17.I'm very very bad at replying message.
18.I own an online shop name Angel's Tears shop.
19.I can't study well.
20.Actually I cry a lot.

That's all :)

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k.bye Hahaha

哭泣的力量:')

        我可以说是个很坚强的女生。我不轻易掉眼泪。

每一次的哭泣都让我更坚强。

第一次的哭泣是在我中一那年，

那年，我爱上了排球，所以决定去训练营，

在训练营里，他们会挑7位当校队，

我没被挑中，我还记得那天，我听了我很伤心，

但是，我告诉自己要强忍者，不许让眼泪掉下。

眼泪已经在眼眶打滚了，我知道它随时会掉下。

我赶紧跑去厕所，不想让别人知道我在哭。

那天，我的头脑不停的再质问自己，

到底自己是不是适合排球，是否要退出。

很庆幸我那年没有退出，直到现在，我还在打排球。

我，到现在还没被挑选进校队，我的未来很渺茫。

但是，我不会放弃，我会一直坚持到底。

所以，在读这篇东西的你，不管在做什么，都要坚持。

所谓“一分耕耘，一份收获” 我们还没的到成果，可能是我们的努力，

并不足够，或许我们加倍的放些心细进去，就会的到我们想要得到的成果了。

加油！